now is 3.06am, i m still wide awake and i feel like writing blog
at dis moment, i feel lonely again
few minutes ago i juz completed filling in and jotting down all my memories and experiences in past 3 months into my diary.. i felt so relief bcuz i hv finally get de job done..
i got a habit keeping diary bcz i wish to keep all my sweet or bitter memories in de diary cz i want to rmb every single bits of them.keeping diary gives me a chance to review wat i have gone thru in my life..having to say that, i m also a lazy person.haha..sumtimes i really want to write everything to my diary BUT juz bcuz i m lazy, i leave it till wen i m absolutely free only i start writing..haha ...this is a very bad habit but i juz cant change it..
the reason why i feel lonely is bcuz i am aware that i ll soon go thru the separation process again..
the ppl who love me r goin 2 leave me alone again,dey r goin 2 pursue their dreams elsewhere.
i actually feel happy for dem but at the same time i also cant stop myself frm feeling a lil bit upset.
these ppl really made huge differences in my life last year..even though we have only known each other for a year but we have already built up a very strong relationship,dey play important roles in my life .. i ll definitely miss dem ...sob sob ...
separation is a must go through process in life n it ll not happen only once but uncountable times, i gotta learn to b strong n independent bcuz i noe dis is de task given by god to train me .. i hv been really immature and dependent, separation makes me realize dat god wants to train me n change me to a better person.i noe i ll feel lonely for quite a long while after these separations but i ll try 2 get used to dat n learn nt to be too dependent and keep relying on ppl who i love and ppl who love me.God ll alwaz with me and help me to go thru dis bravely.
"Separation is a process of learning and it's also a task given to us to prove that distance musnt b de obstacle for any strong relationships built"
believe n prove dat separation CANT and WILL NEVER change our friendships ~
